Bad mood....

I lost it again... breaking down in tears... just feel that there is an air inside me... I have no idea what you want... you want to start to get to know each other... or prehaps you should just leave me and go on... I just not use to having the hot and cold treatment from a person who I onced love... if you can take all my nonsense of answering all my questions... feel free to stay... if you can't take it... don't say you will make afford to go thru problems and communicate and compromise.... and don't make me like a fool... when my heart decided to stay still... and you have to say all those happy stuff to make me happy with abit of hope... and after that you give me that cold shoulder and say i'm playing mind game with you. This mind game statement is really making me really hurt, angry... It does not help much when there is nothing to do in the office and there is an irriating person around that keep asking me lame questions..... making my day super hard to go by... stay on.... *breath breath*